Category: Misc Writings

“Emerging from the Desert” (4/10/2021)

“Emerging from the Desert” (4/10/2021) For about a decade I have chronically struggled with progressively worsening depression.  I was initially diagnosed with depression in fall of 2009 and was put on Zoloft shortly after which allowed me to feel like myself again and function normally, including having a notable bout

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“On Being Monster-Hearted” (5/28/2018)

“On Being Monster-Hearted” (5/28/2018) I haven’t yet used the term “-kith/-hearted” for myself, maybe because I didn’t know what connection of mine was personally fitting of the term/concept.  There are numerous animals which I hold deep, lasting connections with that aren’t theriotypes: crows, antelopes, red canids (dholes, Ethiopian wolves), among

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“Possible Vampire Fictionkin” (5/1/2012)

“Possible Vampire Fictionkin” (5/1/2012) I only started to think about this sometime after I began to consider if I might have a vampire ‘kintype and my external searching about that (both in trying to find other vampire’kin and in comparing/contrasting my vampire-aspect to different versions of vampires in myth, folkore,

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“Contemplations on Vampire Otherkin” (1/20/2012)

“Contemplations on Vampire Otherkin” (1/20/2012) Note: Within this writing, I’m not referring to vampires like the energy-deficient, prana-feeding ones of the vampire community. I’m meaning vampires in an otherkin sense, or as someone experiencing part of oneself as identifying strongly *with* vampires in a way that is more similar to

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Journal Entry: 9/2/2006 –God of Ungulates

Journal Entry: 9/2/2006 –God of Ungulates As I’ve mentioned and explained times before, I have a profound connection with cervids and antelope, although the conscious connection wavers in noticeable strength from time to time, but nevertheless it has been stronger this year than I recall it ever being, and it

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Journal Entry: 7/19/2005 –An occurrence I considered a possible past-life memory at the time

Journal Entry: 7/19/2005 –An occurrence I considered a possible past-life memory at the time **Note (July 31, 2006): It took me awhile to realize it, but I did eventually decide that this experience was not a past-life memory, or at the least, it didn’t have anything to do with my

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“Freiheit: Escaping the Shadow’s Feast” (September 2012)

“Freiheit: Escaping the Shadow’s Feast” **WARNING: self-harm mentions Images, instincts, desires, drives, and sensations; not words. Verbosiveness cannot capture the essence of it; The ferality, animality, and chained creature beneath flesh, blood, and bone. Muscles tensing in periodic waves Clenching and flexing digits tipped in claws, As they seek solid

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“Hooves Beat as Hearts”

“Hooves Beat as Hearts” The haunting call of the Run echoes perpetually within my ears—instinctual, innate, a lasting yearning that resonates throughout my being, throughout my soul. Held within it is comfort, safety, and survival. It’s solace to the herds I’m spiritually bound to. The herds of a thundering percussion

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